Just one of those days....

I need to vent... and not in the mood to talk. So thought I would blog it.

I feel I am failing as a parent but I know it all because I want more for my kids. Courtney can do so much more than she does. I know this if they would let her acheive her goals on other ways but they feel it is important for her to learn the hardest way and not best way! He writing is ok but be so much more sence for her to do spelling words on the computer but NOOOO. We have this teacher, I am just not sure she the best for Courtney!
Dayton is having major time adjusting back to school setting. This morning did me in for the whole day. I am ready to send him off to grandma's to live. You know I now know WHY I hate hoildays and school being out. I really enjoy my time with the kids and not so bad getting that routine going... but the getting back into school.. it is too much for me and my soul.The afternoon are just as bad as morning. The teachers said she expeected this.. me.. hell no. not this bad.I can say this worse I seen him get. God help us he is strong!
Joshua jumped right in to school and loves it of course. He been out medical homebound since Oct 22nd.. and went back Jan 7th. His Pt saw him yesterday and very happy how well he walking with the walker and he taking 3-4 steps now. Been a very long year taking steps here and there. The downside are the days he can't walk at all due to his hips may be out of place. Normally when out of place,takes him a day or so to recovery after he or I put them back in place. One day... one day at a time!

I got to still get through afternoon and dinner and baths before I can crash in the bed and call today a end...ugh.. not bedtime YET???

New Makeover....

Anyone out there help me make a new header and makeover my board? I want to have a fresh looks and monkeys since that what my kids are!
You know the hear no evil,see no evil and speak no evil! lol...

Can post me a comment if you can help me.

Thanks... Bare with me as I get kids back in school and back in routine!

Happy New Year

I am back... going to start 2008 off with me blogging again!

I have so lost WHO I AM!! It taken me nearly 14yrs to realized this and I need to find myself. I am currently doing self therapy.

Toward the end of the year(2007), I was ready to quit being a mom,wife and me and walk away from it all! It a horrible feeling but I am am alot better and still got a long ways to go!

We went last year from a family of 5 to 6 and now back to 5. Jude is not coming back and I have got to accept that. I am praying for his safety and praying everything works out for the family. If he comes back here it will be because we will be adopting him and nothing less.

My 3 kids are doing well and thriving and changing daily!!! I am looking at other blogs and making certain days certain things. Give me a few days.. I will have a set up too. One day for each kid and one day my passion and one day for GOD. Then of course the WORDLESS WED!

Hugs to you all that stood by me!!!
Happy New Year!!!

Cynthia